A Stream of Consciousness
I’ve been reflecting a lot; on my past, situations unfolding in present time, and what I desire. I’m getting out of my head and into my body and realizing more and more that there are things in my life that no longer bring me joy or serve me well. For example, self-doubt and not feeling good enough. They have been burned and released this eclipse season. Good riddance!
Little did I know this would open me up to more possibilities, more creativity, more energy, and more self-love.
The other night I journaled and prayed, and then was immediately guided to free write. I love poetry and I love writing poetry, and what you are about to read is a stream of consciousness poetry writing session from Tuesday, April 9, 2024.
Cheers!
Sometimes I wonder, am I the only one?
Sometimes I wonder, am I the only one?
Am I the only one seeking balance? Trying to ground myself? Take care of myself? All while making sure the tiny humans are fed, watered, cared for, and thriving?
Am I thriving or simply surviving?
One. Step. At. A. Time.
What does that look like? What does that even mean?
Is it one step forward and two steps back? Am I overthinking this? Could it truly be easier? Am I meant to do this alone?
That! That's it! That's the question to all of this! Am I meant to do this alone?
And here's the answer. NO. I am not meant to do this alone. So why am I trying? Why are so many of us trying to do it alone? Why are we strapping on our capes trying to soar when these capes are doing nothing more than keeping us down and bound, instead of whole and ground(ed).
Am I the only one?
Is it really necessary to keep in a grind? To put ourselves last where ourselves we can't find?
NO. It's not necessary, it's actually quite cruel.
So it's time for a shift so huge that others will brood. Their discomfort is proof that we're on the right track towards something so many of us need in fact.
Let's shift the beliefs that limit and scatter us. Let's leap and dive into abundance, let's focus within so that we can gather ourselves to be whole again.
Am I the only one?
I can't possibly be.
I know it's not true, I am not alone. For I am one of many who seek that community, that support, that will make us all whole.
Why must we feel guilt when we ask for some help? Shouldn't it be that we're meant to ask AND receive, without judgement or guilt?
YES. That is the truth, that seems so simple to speak and yet is so hard to embody.
Learned beliefs passed down by past generations and society preaching where we're supposed to be, is no longer our narrative, it's part of our past, we can learn and heal, and no need to stare for this is our time to rewrite and rewire so our children can grow and learn what it means to be whole, what it means to be one with community.
You cannot do this alone. Let me say this again. You cannot do this alone.
This is no criticism, it's simply a fact, one that is routed in love and compassion.
You (we) are meant to experience abundance and love and support so vast that we soar great heights not because of our capes but because of our love for ourselves, and the love we receive from our dear support system.
So let's put the capes down, in fact throw them away. We no longer need them and it's time to say, I'm never alone, I am always supported, even in darkness I'm love and accepted, I'm doing one step at a time to put myself first instead of the grind.
One small habit I know I can keep, one that is mine that never will leave … I’m not alone.
